Senior year in college is much much harder than anyone’s ever told me. I’ve always thought I had my whole life figured out. But I don’t! I don’t know what I’ll be doing in four months! It’s super scary. I know whatever path I choose I’ll know how to be happy.. but I don’t wanna choose, I don’t wanna grow, I don’t wanna!
I got into Lund University, yay! But I just realized that it’s $80k total for the two years. Are those two years really worth a lifetime of paying back loans? Possibly. There’s a possibility that I’ll get a nice job coming out of grad school and $80k would seem like a great investment in that scenario.
My stomach hurts ’cause I don’t wanna think. As long as I’m not thinking about the future, I’m super happy. Which is new to me; the ‘future’ has always been inspiring and exciting for me. At this point, it seems like whatever path I choose, a part of my heart will break. SO DRAMATIC but it’s trueeeee!
I’m happy. I love my friends, I love my mom, I love my boyfriend, I love my current life. I don’t wanna let go! >:T
Boyfriend got a rice cooker so I’d have food to eat at his place. HAHAHA LOVE!!!